Apr 15, 2015

Crushing It!

I've been knocked down. I've made my mistakes and learned from them.

This time, I'm going to do it and will never have to have a "day job" ever again.  More importantly, I will finish what I started -- and when I say finish, I mean LIVE.

#onlinevideo #movies #socialmedia -- the triforce.

Feb 7, 2015

January's Gone, So Let's Catch Up

This is just off the cuff. This year hasn't started the way I wanted, but you know, sometimes you just have to roll with the punches. We're already in February 2015 and I already feel like I'm playing catch up. Many writing projects on the horizon, including the ones from the list I posted last month. Exciting stuff, but again, I feel like I'm playing catch up as I wanted to do more than I did in January. I'm aware of it, so I'm keeping track of statistics of things I do starting this month per project. I have some statistics sheets I received from my mentor's class back in 2011. Wish I had used them sooner, but I think I had to grow up a little more since that time. I'm taking things much more seriously now than ever before.

I'm quite the introspective kind of person. My mind goes a mile a minute, and sometimes I wish I could quiet it. I wonder why sometimes I am this way. Where did it come from? Why do I live inside my head as much as I do? I seriously need to tell myself to snap out of it and pay attention to the world. Being on autopilot isn't the best thing. I'm very attentive to the details around me, but I do catch myself being lost in my head while walking around. You know that thing when you're deep in thought and someone talks to you and it surprises you? You're sitting there like, "oh... yeah. Hey." Possibly with a frightened expression, as if you're dumbfounded someone actually spoke to you.

That has happened a lot in January.

I've been thinking a lot about making YouTube videos again because that's something in my life I really miss doing. I was really into the YouTube game back in 2007 - 2012, and things have changed a lot since YouTube's beginnings, but in ways, it has stayed the same. The problem with YouTube now is that it's harder to become noticed as there are so many people out there attempting to be the next big YouTube star, or create that viral video that everyone sees in a given week / month. There is so much content out there. I wonder if there are people out there that are discouraged about that very notion. I know I could be, but I also know how to play the game and get back to where I once was -- the thing is: I ask myself if I want to or not. It takes a lot of time to play the YouTube game. Writing the video, shooting the video, editing the video -- this is just starting by yourself. I think if or when I come back to it, I change it up a little bit. Maybe make it fun for myself. Maybe make it a little different than what I was doing before.

Again, this is if I truly decide to move forward with that or not. Focusing on my writing projects and getting my scripts out there is the main goal this year, as well as making my first feature. If I did YouTube again, I would like to keep it simple enough where I could post consistently, but not fully dedicate all of my time towards it. For example, making one video per week instead of attempting to make daily videos or videos every other day. At this time, I don't think I have made my mind up about this. I've been on the fence about fully returning to YouTube for awhile.

If I do it, I have to be fully committed and not look back.

 

Jan 18, 2015

Why I Write Movies #1

When I was a child, I didn't have the greatest relationship with my grandfather. I didn't really know him at all and I lived with him, but we shared a small connection through movies.

I had recorded Rocky 3 and 4 on VHS, commercials and all, and watched them often. We didn't buy movies very much when I was younger, so this was how I first started a movie collection: recording movies from TV.  My grandpa would come out of his room noticing I was watching Rocky 3 yet again, and he'd say, "let me know when he's fighting Mr. T."



Or if I were watching Rocky 4, he'd say, "let me know when he's fighting the Russian." He'd ask me to do this every time, and when it was time for Rocky to step in the ring with his opponent, whether it be Clubber Lang or Ivan Drago, grandpa would come out of his room, coffee mug in hand, with a big toothless grin.

"The fight's starting? Alright."



We'd watch these Rocky fights together, and since Stallone always structured his Rocky fight sequences through montages, the rounds flew by quickly.  Grandpa watched them as if they were actual fights. I loved seeing my grandpa's face, totally engaged what was happening on screen. He'd seen these fight sequences as many times as I have, but he always watched it as if it were the first time. And when Rocky wins, grandpa would stand up and say something like "he's the champ!" and shuffle back to his room with a small spark to his step.

Another time we'd share this kind of moment is through the Back to the Future scene when Marty sings Johnny B. Goode. Grandpa would never watch the full movie with me, but when he saw me watching it, he asked, "let me know when he plays the guitar."

And then when Marty gets up on stage, grandpa would once again emerge from his room, excited to see Michael J. Fox lip synch a classic song on stage.  I always wondered what about this scene that my grandpa liked.  Did he like the song?  Did he like the whole scenario of Marty sharing a sound that a generation of kids were never exposed to in their lives?  Or was it something else entirely?

Grandpa being so engaged with these movie moments stuck with me over the years because it was some of the only times that he and I connected.  It was something we both shared together.  We had watched television together before.  Shows like The A Team and Matlock were some of his favorites, but long after we knew him as our "senile, old grandpa" and he wouldn't speak to me much anymore besides indistinguishable chatter or unnecessary putdowns, he'd still connect with me through these movies as he always did.

It makes me think about all of the people out there that may have these kind of memories through movies.  With so many people out there in this big little marble we live on, I wonder about which movies impact their lives and why.  How a movie may have connected two different people and opened up a conversation.  Maybe how a movie is that one you pop in and watch because you're alone, and seeing it again feels like visiting old friends.

I think about all of the ordinary people that become emotionally involved with a story on screen.  My grandpa would rarely miss these movie moments:  Rocky fighting Clubber Lang, Rocky fighting Ivan Drago, Marty McFly playing Johnny B. Goode to a crowd of 1950's adolescence.  Do my screenplays have these types of scenes?  At least one?  A scene that is so involving that someone would want to watch over and over again?  And why?  Why did my grandpa watch these scenes with me countless times while not bothering to watch the full movie?

I believe it's because those scenes made him feel something.  They made him feel something good.  And because they made him feel good, he was able to open up to me and be himself.  We'd get to have a grandpa and grandson kind of moment.  A happy one.

When I write screenplays, I strive to create these types of scenes.  Scenes that speak to us deeper than surface level.  The type of moments that grab us by the heart and squeeze, and never let go.  Say what you want about the Rocky sequels, but somehow they did that for my grandpa, and we shared some of our only fun moments because of it.

When I write, I want to give that gift to others because I feel that was a gift to me.